another day in my life

i am officially lost…. and i have only myself to blame for…. my college life is turning upside down… once a fav student by lecturers and now i guess i should be the worst student in clas… i have lost my spirit, the cause in my life, the rebel in me is gone…. i am no more fighting and i am surrendering to faith until today when i got a rude awakening…. what the fuck am i doing….?!?! i have not been commited to my studies as i used to be… and now i really regret going to work in westin in the 1st place as i just lost hope and my belief in myself…. i have been blaming others for all the shit which has been happening but now… fuck i am just lost…. just another loser down the wrong way…. i cant imagine myself likedis anymor…… i gotta do something…. and i gotta do in now!!! desperately in need of help….. please help me…. i want to be the old nanda again…. i wanna be loved all over again… i wanna be an acheiver all over again… not just a daydreamer….i need to be motivated…. my engine in me need to be overhauled and jumpstarted….. i am on a downhill tumble… please help to roll me the other way round…. i am speechless of my current state….. post a commenty for me please

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